This track normally makes me smile, remembering OUSFG/RPGSOC Christmas parties of years past. This time I remember the first one, nearly 9 years ago. And Matthew being there to comfort me when they played something that reminded me too much of Ian. 9 years can make a lot of things fade, but you never forget. I blamed myself terribly for Ian's death. Not surprising I'd be thinking of it now. I think somewhere over the years I've managed to mostly forgive myself though. I miss him too.