September 4th, 2003


Baby steps

Pub quiz last night helped cheer me up. So did talking to Jan, though I feel a bit crap about that since partly I feel better for knowing that she's being treated badly too and that it's not just me. I hope just having someone to talk to about it helped though, even if I suspect it's not really that much use. It was lovely to see Richard having a nice time too. Even if their team did beat ours to come second, leaving us in a pretty respectable third place. Talking to Paul yesterday helped too, and to M by email. And I think just being at home today, so I can more comfortably fill the time when I have nothing to do. No sign of TV yet but it's early days. They're all little things on their own, but put together they make a big difference and I'm not feeling hopeless any more. Still should go see doctor about it though.

Need to decide between pub again tonight (would be nice to see Steve, since he's up in the area today) or staying in with the port and the nice cheese and the remains of the chocolates and watching (fingers crossed) something on the new telly.


Unbeatable just rang. Despite me calling them yesterday and saying "yes please, delivery tomorrow, and let me know if you can't" they have no record of this in their notes and apparently didn't tell TNT either because they were letting me know TNT and just returned the telly to them. I'm afraid I may have shouted a bit, or at least talking loudly and crossly. She offered me a choice between delivery tomorrow or a timed delivery 9-12 on Saturday. Perhaps I should have gone for the latter, but I don't trust it to be on time and we're going to London in the afternoon for Marna's party and I'll want a lie in. They have said they'll refund the delivery charge though.

I have to admit I put the phone down and literally screamed. And now I just want to curl up in a ball and cry again. And I should probably go into the office this afternoon since there's not reason to be here now, but I don't think I can face it. I can get just as much work done from here at least. Though given it is currently lunchtime anyway I am going to go hide under the duvet with a book for a bit instead. If it doesn't arrive tomorrow we will cancel and buy elsewhere. Am making notes so I can write and complain properly. Rjk wants to publish description on web, which I probably won't object to.
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